Day 1: Relationship Status

Oh goody.

I like saying that phrase because:
a. When writing, I often find it hard to sound sarcastic. And...
b. Nobody ever says this without being sarcastic.

And THAT is how you set the tone for the rest of the post! Because of course I am single. And I don't particularly like it. And as I have now realised, the only single person I know writing this challenge is myself. So this should be a unique read!

So I guess there are two routes here. Either flaunt myself or wallow in self pity. Personally I can't imagine those making good reads. Lets just try and be honest then.

For me being in a relationship is very important. I have been single for over a year now. If I am being honest it has changed me a lot from who I was before. Since my first girlfriend I had very little time being single until my last break up. I have always tried to be down to earth with relationships and I would never cheat on someone. I am loyal and in the past maybe too loyal. In simple terms I just don't mess around. I go as far as the other person wants me to, I don't cross lines and I am honest.

Relationship wise I am scarred. I have had bad breakups and then terrible ones. I had times where I needed to work hard and times where I needed to put all I had on the line. Even though I put everything into those times, when it was over and I took a step back and, to be honest, the judgement of one teenage girl was never enough to cut me down.

I get along well with girls. In fact I say I usually get along better with girls. Most of my best friends are/were girls. It just seems I make a much better friend than a boyfriend. Now that isn't to have a go at girls saying I am unappreciated by them. In fact I made a conscious decision that I don't have to choose between having a girlfriend or having a best friend who is a girl. Because I can have both. I really appreciate having some friends as just friends.

On the down side I am incredibly easily put in the friend zone. There ain't nothing like being asked by someone to maybe sweep my feelings for them under the carpet and act like nothing happened. (Bad Euan, no bitching!) But at the same time I can make close friends with girls in months like we have known each other for years. That's always a plus!

So why does being single bother me that much? The vast majority of my friends are not single. I know virtually zero available girls and any male friends I hang out with regularly are all in relationships. Sometimes I feel like I go out of my way to see people but not the other way round. As I see it being in a relationship solves these things.

As for what girls I like. Well I am not fussy, and I don't say that in a "it doesn't matter to me" kind of way. Looks are always a plus, lets not pretend here, but I can easily look past them and find something attractive in anyone.

What interests me the most is just how different people work on the inside. So different personalities appeal to me in different ways. For instance I find girls who are quiet, shy and geeky cute. Whereas girls who are loud and opinionated are admirable to me. I think everyone is equal so there is a lot of people I can love equally once I know them on a deep enough level.

I think that is all I have to say on the matter that matters. I am sure it isn't an amazing read but maybe it can be interesting. Maybe people can see a different side to me. I am sure I have a lot of friends who haven't seen what I am like in a couple.